Some sad song

I got the strang feeling
Vacant and free
Yeah, it's me
Look at all these losers
I am one of them
I know I am bad
yeah I know it's hurt
But all I know it's one way road even I do you harm
I was wonder what's ur mind when I hear some sad song
the feeling must be drift at the night, and fill ur head
Too much sad songs and too much emotions
I was falling flat
we're all not perfect man
when you're crying and backs against the wall
you say I wish I was special
I'm just like you.

Why not nothing?

People said I'm too pessimistic.
Yes, I know that.
some said my ideal is unpratical.
oh yeah, all your say is all mine.

Looking at the mirror
I just know who I am.
some just can't live life with confusion.
I might be sentimental but I don't give up yet
some may question my talent.
they said I'm just a loser.
but in my mind, the spirit is never gone.
what is rock n' roll? I am the fucking rock n' rollers!
I've never been an extrovert, but i'm still breathing.

Looking at the mirror, I know where I am.
why not just nothing? they always try to define everything.
Left the melody keep flowing around my mind.
These are stange and vain days we live in
but I know sometimes we all wanna give in.
I can't live life with confusion.
All these stange, vain days we live in
yes I know sometimes we all wanna give in.

Meditation

I was thinking about all these things that come to me

The society like one-size clothes and push everyone try to fit.

but what for?

Will, sense of self, choice, individuality, responsibility, liberty.
I try to meditate on where I stand.
In the 21 century
it's like you can buy the feeling whatever you want immediate.
losting in the silver screen
and slave to the money.
people always seems to do the same things..
as Oscar Wilde said:
"Most people are other people.Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation. "
I don't like you do one thing just because others do.
Like a sprung robot.

John Donne said, "No man is an island, entire of it self "
Realizing I am the part of the people
I still got the confusion.
It must be something wrong!?
The world never satisfied us
there is no easy way to go
and I don't know how?
Can you feel the same?
Where we're going to be in the summertime?
The shine that you ever have now
Would you do the same?
keep shining as the morning star.

The hard time

I feel this is the darkest period.
Nothing seems to be inspire me.
Everything look like as usual.
like skies before storm comes

How can't you dejected to this decadence?
Even the rock n' roll has no freshness anymore
Sing me something new
though the life change in a matter of days
but it's no fun, u know
How come change always seems to bring the rain?
I wanna find, I wanna feel , I wanna unload

I read a few words from where I forget
"Workers don't think, Thinker don't work"
I guess I must be think too much
Let's break magic beauty of the fragile mind
this is reality.
if u don't bring ur heart back to the life
u always feel lost somehow

perhaps there is nothing we can find
Living is already has its meaning
stay strong
move on
keep on, my friend
we're safe cos I am by your side.

Mystery

Life is making u crying, smiling and we don't understand.
I should have a lot of feelings
but I got not much to say.
How to talk about this thing I may never know?
Living for today, we got no feeling
if we have a little bit, they will be tangled and frayed
All the passion and faith will disappear one day.
when dream comes ture. and turning to the reality
it means the dream have gone.
how to sing this song that we sing?
I don't know how?
I know sometimes I should do it on my own.
but I just woder will you be there for me to hold?
I guess I just can't make it alone.

Damn, whatever

All these bads, coming to me
misunderstanding, stubbornness, pressure..
they almost drive me crezy
making me want to scream out

Damn, I say come on now!
whatever it takes away form me
I 'll fight to dead until they give back my life
fuck, I have nothing to lose anyway
fuck! come on now

Step out

It's time to step out that I told to myself a thousand times
there is no other way only you can is follow the road
it is one way road to go
but my fucking mind is always getting around
No one press me to do
it just me, I push me down.

My head start to hurt
and thought is running through
my mind is a mess
I don't know what to do.
this feeling drifts to days, turns to nights
so here it comes
the panic is on the way
I just find out
the fear I'm afraid is the future
I am dreaming, fall into sleep
the daylight is harsh to my eye
Don't wake me up, I am whole in my lucid dream
so tell me it's fine to open the eye if it's not to bad
say it's as good as I hope.